The girl with the hidden anxiety.

She dreams often

Smiles and talks whilst closing her eyes

She feels the world

Her circle to realise

She’s different

Her gift the knowing of the spark in front of her

Their thoughts feelings of truth

Even if they cover their eyes

With lies

She’s aware

What their soul bares

Her anxiety is their truth

What their heart screams

But words cover up

When just a babe

Innocent of truth

Her gift took her youth

She grew up quick

But now she’s older

Wiser and stronger

The men in her life have bled her dry

As she cries and strives

To use her gift for the one person who matters the most

But almost a ghost

It’s too late now

She wipes her brow

To never have known what her purpose was

Is or should’ve been

Her gift took her on many journeys for other’s paths

But never for herself

So her gift was also a curse

Entwined together was the knowing with the fear

Equals anxiety of what else would the next

Spark reveal

Want

I want

Classic of you

Words of want

Ringing true

I want

All of you

Mixed up words

What now Mr Blue

I want

An idea or two

I want it now

Just a few

I want

You always do

What will you give?

In return Mr Blue?

I want

Here we go again

You call me up

And give your name

Just so you know

A name won’t do

I want much more

All of you

I saw your eyes today

The last time you looked at me in that way

My heart broke into a million pieces

Shattered and falling there were no pleases

They were sad and I saw no approval

I drew them in the angry accusal

Please tell for why were they wrought

With darkness and sadness and anger aloft

I’ve only ever tried to please

These games of hurt they must cease

I’ll finish this now for you will move

Forward you see I’ve won you’ll lose

I know in my heart there is no regret

There’s nothing my love I will soon forget

All that you were and all that you do

Was always for them But mostly for you

I’m glad that I gave you the lift that was needed

Consider this a the greatest peace treaty

Ever written for you my friend

You presumed me wrong I’ll never condemn

You to hell for this tragic story

You lead me a long for close to forty

Years the string tied to both our hearts

Is fraying now and tearing apart

One last chance to bind us together

The old song goes it’s now or never

Belongs

Neither here nor there

Life isn’t fair

Where do I belong

metal strums a song

The games you play

The walls are up

What do you say

Fill up my cup

I’ll give you more

So you won’t bore

Leave you a key

To use you see

Unlock and turn

Feeling me burn

To light a flame

Playing your game

Here is love for you

Your soul renews

Be well and free

One day with me

Scars

Red and raw

Train track flaw

Another pain

Going insane

Healing time

Another rhyme

Feeling blue

Time standing still

Smile diminish

Friendship finished

Couldn’t wait

Gone in haste

Patience a virtue

Body now your curfew

Tired and sore

Mind implores

Sit still and heal

Scream high and shrill

Fix what’s lost

At whatever the cost

Blue

Blue is you

Your eyes so true

Your heart it beats red through and through

The light so bright

see me in you

I’m blessed I love

The words mirror in you

The magic is there

I will help you through

Breathe in my love

Raise it high

Together again

Souls in the sky

Nor space or time

Extinguished the spark

I hear your calls

Soon in the dark

Courteous

Courteous are you
Spirit in blue
From the heavens above
You are always loved
Now rest for a while
Like the soil of fertile
Terra needs to rest
To produce it’s best
Tell them all to retire
Wear their best attire
And be ready for you
When you leave the cocoon
For a new you will immerge
Stronger brighter
And purged
Of all holds that bind you
To the earthly ways
Of this blue blue world

But I dare not tell you

What to do

for fear of losing you …

 

Feverish

Hot and cold

My soul I sold

To the depths below

So lust will know

Curiosity killed

But this it filled

The darkest hole

Within my soul

Forever entombed

Within the womb

Of mortal sin

Harps and strings

Strung and play

So I lay

With the devil himself

Never did felt

Like this before

Broken and sore

I was on fire

But now require

Prayers from above

Not lust but love

Enchanter

Bongo drums in the distance
All in rythmn
Feet tapping
Fingers strumming
Creating a tune
Eyes lowered
Lips moving
Voice escaping
The darkest depths of your throat
Boom boom tap tap
Lines distorted
Creating a map
Follow me listen to me
Love me the voice croons
Eyes raised,  lingers on all
Enchanting the room
Your prescence is not of this world
Nostalgically attractive in a mysterious
Gothic way
I would say
And yet then pay
The price for losing my way

The last time

Well my friend
The end is near
Tomorrow will be
The last time I will hear
Your voice so perfect
I love you, yes love
Sends me soaring
Up and above
To another level
A private universe
Where noone else
Can touch us
But only love
I will immerse
For without it this world
Is forgotten and doomed
Where once someone told me
Start living or entombed
Forever to walk like the living dead
But little does he know
I go into my head
With the clearing of my mind
Only your voice do I hear
Those beautiful tones
The passion,  the glee
I know all your truth is not written
in  song
But there must be a seed
Tell me am I wrong
Like the seedling it grows
Reaching up to the light
With outstretched green foliage
What a beautiful sight
And into the perfect plant it will be
Forever seeking truth of love
Light and free
To move as I wish
Wont be long now I know
Deep in my heart
The first seed that was sown
There is not much time
With every breath that I take
I thank you for your songs
Now my body starts to ache
With the black inside of me
Once again they have found
that black mass has presented
In the background
Will take over the blue
But that is ok
For without your voice
I would be in my grave
A second chance was given
A third am I right
To do as I wish
Break away from my fright
And fear holds me back
For the pure only know
These man made shackles
That are chained to my soul
To stop me from being
Awake and free
To stop me from throwing away
My family
When I will die
I will protect from above
My electricity you’ll feel
Like the white of a dove
But for now tomorrow
I will see you again
From afar I will smile
And know this my friend
I have loved you before
In a life past and gone
I have loved you today
From the day I was born