That tired feeling
Washing over my skin
The new normal
Has broken me in
The search is over
All stones up turned
Today I’m sober
My spirit is burned
All hope is lost
Can’t see you smile
The masks now block
So many vacant eyes
Stare back at me
Uncertain futures
People ready to flee
I woke up tired
And sore and blue
Tired of this sham
This world of new 💙
You’ve Recently closed
Unplugged just gone
Lost connection
No light shone
Out of reach
Out of sight
Into the darkness
Out of the light
Did you wish to end it
With all your might
We’ve been tricked
By the oceans bight
A spark to ignite
The fury caused
Create divisions
Between the groups
Just an incision
That won’t be stitched
And can’t be fixed
Not who you are
So near yet far
I’ve tried for you
Oh hero of blue
To create peace
And hatred release
No light ahead
I fear and dread
My physical pain
Return twin flame
‘Twas not to be
Not meant to leave
Return back home
Not the unknown
You’re angry
I feel it
What have I done
I’m scared
Shaking
I want to run
I shouldn’t have said yes
I didn’t think you’d come
You’re smile you’re eyes
Were always such fun
Now there’s disappointment
A reason to yell
The beginning of the anger
The sound of the bell
Get away far away
As far as your legs take
The anger I can’t stand
All I will forsake
But without your love
My heart will break
I’m sorry
I was wrong
An offering on my plate
Please take my soul
Forgive me I’m sorry
Please tell me what I’ve done
Before I start to run
Still
It’s all so still
Silent cold and grey
Broken
Broken I feel
Hurting shattered betrayed
Automatic
Autopilot keep smiling and stay
Feeling
Feel nothing invisible ghostly frayed
Black
Blackened soul deep within dead
Glass
See right through fragile mind Always dread
Purple you shade
A colour I avoid
I cannot fathom
How you are adored
Streaks of you I admit
Are darker shades of blue
When mixed with a black brown
Then it becomes you
So you are the depression and
Angst with the sad
Hurting a young girl
Whom feels truly bad
She’s one mixed up soul
No mother who adores
Was thrown in a white room
Tied up in four walls
Her soul is so passionate
Purple she oozes
Latched onto your heart
And words of blue
I have tried to stop her
From adulates and suns
You are her idol
Whatever will become
Of this young purple girl
Followed you to the ends
Of the world her hair curled
She handed you a present
Was met with a cold ice
A curt thank you
Her heart you did splice
Once again I am sorry
I will bring attention to she
I now know how incorrigible
She is and her needs
It’s so quiet
you’ve gone
A chemical
Phenomenon
My addiction
Your voice
My addiction
My choice
Cells dancing
Rejoice
Common sense
destroyed
The only thing
I enjoy
Another hit
Bring me up
Elevate me
Blowing up
Mind reeling
Loose control
Like a comet
Or asteroid
Then crash
Leaves a hole
You’ve hit my high
Now low
Another fix
Is what I need
My insatiable
You Feed
Rehab is what
I need
Shadows in amongst the Blue
A memory of me
A memory of you
There lie the secrets
One dare not tells
Whispers and potions
Of magic and spells
Frequencies of music
Sung with love and despair
An emotion a depth
a voice so rare
Thousands of hearts
All want a piece of you
One in paticular
So young can you see
Her heart was broken
By her aunt she still bleeds
Now she is 18
Wants to meet you
Whilst the shadows grow darker
These shadows of blue
Breathe
I float
This way and that
I float
Towards you
Slide like a cat
Breathe
You come closer
I shake
What to say
Breathe
All hopes of a coherant sentence
fade
Breathe
You look you stare you inhale
Breathe
Eyes widen a smile prevails
Breathe
You recognise my words eyes and hue
Breathe
There’ll be not another you
*remember to breathe
A little girl
No can’t be I wirled
She kicked with a vengeance
And turns with no penance
A punch over here
Get me out I hear
For my belly grew bigger
Whilst the babe climbed like a rigger
Up into my chest
Never to rest
9 months I carried you
Whilst you burped and cooed
Tonight my heart broke
You laughed like I joked
I cried you did not ring
Whilst you continued to sing
I fretted all night
We’re you in a fight?
No text no sound
Your phone on silent mode
Were you in a gutter
Killed by a nutter
I could not sleep
But continued to weep
I must now let you go
So you will now grow
Into a lady you’ll be
A fierce one I see
A heart of pure gold
Cold yellow and bold
Early to bed
To clear the head
A fog and a haze
For many a days
Could have been years
Didn’t use my ears
To listen and nurture
Our mother nature
Is choking and dying
Whilst many are sighing
The trees turning brown
Falling leaves hit the ground
Birds fall from the skies
Children rubbing their eyes
Allergies bring on sneezes
Old man is wheezing
Planes overhead
White smoke now I dread
Smoke turns into a cloud
Bees buzzing around
Lost in direction
Deserving a mention
Fish swimming to land
Dying on the hot sand
Who are the dredgers
Of sand they make riches
I bow to noone
Nor money only LOVE
And now I will sleep
For mother Earth I weep
Ghost words of the imaginings 