Patci

I’m sorry I wasn’t there

Nor did I know

I’m sorry you were in pain

And your soul had to go

A lovely light with love

Your guiding light

Reached out to me

To share your joy

I was more than happy

To hear and know

I was blessed to know you

Blessed you chose me

A bright spark

A beautiful laugh

Fly now and be free

Watch over your loved ones

All love and miss thee

Suitcases packed

The time has come

Your call you’ve beckoned

Flights booked You won

Family ties at rest and peace

New beginnings new country

New friends new lease

From a sheltered world With blinkers on

When the plane lands

Old reunions and bonds

Will once again pick up as before

The connection made

Back in 2004

Weary hot and humid

Waiting for the sky to let go the promised rains

As confusion begins to spread across the state

Sleepless sweaty nights the people try to go about

Their daily routines. Many are suffering dehydration

Whilst others just lack sleep

When did this country, the lucky country turn itself on it’s axis

So up is down. Down is up

The free are chained and the chained set free

I stand back and watch, observe and cry as they in their confusion

Continue to take the blue pill

Don’t look up nor change the code

It’s only a weather glitch

As the new override proceeds to infiltrate

Whilst releasing new crystals to cool the Earth

But tik tok another hot spot was seen above the stratosphere

Buckle up folks. Take that boost and many pills whilst our food shrivels

under the hot Australian sun.

I wrote this so I can sleep

Egg shells

Are so fragile

Just like your mind Not agile

Since he left you abandoned

Head spinning and broken

We’ll pick up the pieces

I love you he teases

Stole your thoughts then he laughed

Broke your brain stabbed your heart

You forgave, sad and blue

But your brain blew a fuse

Always nervous anxious and tired

No blue pill, very wired

So amongst the shells we walk

We listen you talk

He’s back now you pray

But he just wants to play…

Time on Earth

Should be all it promises

Sunshines and lollipops

Unicorns and horses

But listen while I spill a spool

Of loneliness and heartaches

Where trees Sway

Stairs are long

and winding

And sighs escape when they may

So jig it up

Drop a few, mix it if it pleases

The plan to plot

No sadness you want

So drop them as you need to…

Daughter

I watched the light dim

As your chocolate eyes watched him

Like many others before

Treated you like a whore

Angel like and naive

A good girl I believed

Walking a dark path straight to

Adulthood just to prove

All around you cotton wool

We tried to cushion you

From the world out there

But you just didn’t care

So on you kept going

Till the fourth boy left you lonely

Defending them you did

Your hurt you couldn’t tell

Kept it buried down the well

Till the water overflowed

Up the darkness it arose

Shaking with rage inside

Blew your insides soul and mind

Now the white walls surround you

Whispers white noise docs in blue

Watch you closely as the cracks

Reveal secrets deep dark and black

I wish you could’ve talked to me

Before the eruption made you bleed

If only you shared your pain

Of the boys who broke your brain

You were real

You were real in my dream

But then I woke it would seem

I was down on my knees

Eyes lowered hands clasped bleeding

A soft touch on my shoulder

I feared to look I was older

Tired and sore fearing what lays

Ahead as I dropped knowing I may

Get whipped from soldiers

Taunted by them

For weak am I but still worked for them

Come you whisper to me softly

My name you called and sad for knowing

Bonny was I once upon a time

The world my oyster

But now is a crime

You helped me rise follow me you smile

No one else saw you invisible was I

We walked down wet paths onto the stairs

You hold my hand I could only stare

Now I know I’ve left this world

With my love I remember you so…

Little by Little

You’re unraveling

Good to see

How you’re travelling

Shame the green eyed monster exists

Down in your soul

The dungeons the pits

There you’ve said it

Your soul your truth

The lies you are telling

Imagined and strewth

You slowly are peeling back every layer

The jealousy you’ve conjured

Away in your manger

Sadly you’ve now lost a friend whom was true

Whom smiled and listened and helped when you’re blue

But alas you’ll keep trying to pretend to be nice

I’ve now seen your bllsht the green and the moss

Forgive

I forgive you

But why should I care

When I have

Nothing left to spare

Nor would I even dare

You are leaving

With no remorse or despair

Are there words to change your mind

Or your cold stare

I’m broken up inside

Feeling pain I just can’t hide

In a moment you are gone

Just like this sad sad song

I’ll forgive you

If we give it one more try

I promise not to cry

And leave it there

Will you hold me

Say we will be fine

Words that will not rhyme

As you close the door behind you

One last time …..

I miss

I miss the sun dancing across my face

Kissing my eyes whilst standing a top a hill

I miss the ocean breeze caressing my hair

Whilst my toes are digging into the grains of sandy beaches

I miss the wind circling beneath my nostrils as the leaves of a thick wooded

Area release the perfumes of eucalyptus trees

I miss the fires built within bluestone circles

Omitting their heat to keep strangers warm

I miss sleeping beneath the stars with only the moonlight

To guide us in wooded areas amongst the tall trees

But most of all I miss thee

During this lockdown and unprecedented times we will slowly

Die.

I miss feeling alive…. 💙