Egg shells

Are so fragile

Just like your mind Not agile

Since he left you abandoned

Head spinning and broken

We’ll pick up the pieces

I love you he teases

Stole your thoughts then he laughed

Broke your brain stabbed your heart

You forgave, sad and blue

But your brain blew a fuse

Always nervous anxious and tired

No blue pill, very wired

So amongst the shells we walk

We listen you talk

He’s back now you pray

But he just wants to play…

Time on Earth

Should be all it promises

Sunshines and lollipops

Unicorns and horses

But listen while I spill a spool

Of loneliness and heartaches

Where trees Sway

Stairs are long

and winding

And sighs escape when they may

So jig it up

Drop a few, mix it if it pleases

The plan to plot

No sadness you want

So drop them as you need to…

Daughter

I watched the light dim

As your chocolate eyes watched him

Like many others before

Treated you like a whore

Angel like and naive

A good girl I believed

Walking a dark path straight to

Adulthood just to prove

All around you cotton wool

We tried to cushion you

From the world out there

But you just didn’t care

So on you kept going

Till the fourth boy left you lonely

Defending them you did

Your hurt you couldn’t tell

Kept it buried down the well

Till the water overflowed

Up the darkness it arose

Shaking with rage inside

Blew your insides soul and mind

Now the white walls surround you

Whispers white noise docs in blue

Watch you closely as the cracks

Reveal secrets deep dark and black

I wish you could’ve talked to me

Before the eruption made you bleed

If only you shared your pain

Of the boys who broke your brain

You were real

You were real in my dream

But then I woke it would seem

I was down on my knees

Eyes lowered hands clasped bleeding

A soft touch on my shoulder

I feared to look I was older

Tired and sore fearing what lays

Ahead as I dropped knowing I may

Get whipped from soldiers

Taunted by them

For weak am I but still worked for them

Come you whisper to me softly

My name you called and sad for knowing

Bonny was I once upon a time

The world my oyster

But now is a crime

You helped me rise follow me you smile

No one else saw you invisible was I

We walked down wet paths onto the stairs

You hold my hand I could only stare

Now I know I’ve left this world

With my love I remember you so…

Little by Little

You’re unraveling

Good to see

How you’re travelling

Shame the green eyed monster exists

Down in your soul

The dungeons the pits

There you’ve said it

Your soul your truth

The lies you are telling

Imagined and strewth

You slowly are peeling back every layer

The jealousy you’ve conjured

Away in your manger

Sadly you’ve now lost a friend whom was true

Whom smiled and listened and helped when you’re blue

But alas you’ll keep trying to pretend to be nice

I’ve now seen your bllsht the green and the moss

Forgive

I forgive you

But why should I care

When I have

Nothing left to spare

Nor would I even dare

You are leaving

With no remorse or despair

Are there words to change your mind

Or your cold stare

I’m broken up inside

Feeling pain I just can’t hide

In a moment you are gone

Just like this sad sad song

I’ll forgive you

If we give it one more try

I promise not to cry

And leave it there

Will you hold me

Say we will be fine

Words that will not rhyme

As you close the door behind you

One last time …..

I miss

I miss the sun dancing across my face

Kissing my eyes whilst standing a top a hill

I miss the ocean breeze caressing my hair

Whilst my toes are digging into the grains of sandy beaches

I miss the wind circling beneath my nostrils as the leaves of a thick wooded

Area release the perfumes of eucalyptus trees

I miss the fires built within bluestone circles

Omitting their heat to keep strangers warm

I miss sleeping beneath the stars with only the moonlight

To guide us in wooded areas amongst the tall trees

But most of all I miss thee

During this lockdown and unprecedented times we will slowly

Die.

I miss feeling alive…. 💙

A little ditty

Here she goes again oh oh oh

Falling swaying twirling oh oh oh oh

That sinking feeling oh oh oh oh

You’ve been there once before

You’ve been there once before

The pulling undertow

The pulling undertow

The crash and the burn

The crash and the burn

The nothing left to say

She’s left her body sways

The promises you made

The fabric as it frays

Just ashes on the floor

Go running for the door

Vacant eyes

Searching the room

The promises she made

A good thing she just blew

Here she goes again

Falling swaying twirling

That sinking feeling

You’ve been there once before

You’ve been there once before

Go running for the door

Go running for the door

Don’t want to

Don’t want to

Bleeding words forevermore

Don’t want to

Don’t want to

There

There she goes

Eyes roll back

The words she lacks

She’s like the sun

Her coronal mass ejections

Drew you to her

Without thought and feeling

Her warmth and magnetic pull

Was what you needed to feel

Whole again. Her brightness

Unwavering steadfast gaze

You had no choice

But you missed it.

You missed the coronal holes

The black missing chunks

Created by every disappointment

Heartbreak and lies told to her

One more wrongdoing could burn the sun out

Listen to the mass ejections you may hear

Her cries for the one true love

The promise of centuries and eons before

He will return in this life for her yet chose to be with another

So everyday she rises spins and omits her warmth knowing she has no choice

But to carry on. For many are dependent on her

Until her spark returns no more….

Tired

That tired feeling

Washing over my skin

The new normal

Has broken me in

The search is over

All stones up turned

Today I’m sober

My spirit is burned

All hope is lost

Can’t see you smile

The masks now block

So many vacant eyes

Stare back at me

Uncertain futures

People ready to flee

I woke up tired

And sore and blue

Tired of this sham

This world of new 💙