Never have I seen

One so aloof yet distracted before

Knock on my door

Wanting more

Yet bring nothing to the table

Tell me fables

Caress me in ways

Like sun rays

Feeling good splashing kisses

Those I miss

End this tryst

You imagined for us

In God we trust

And left with nothing more to give

Hopes are sieved

Like sand and crashing waves

I walk away

It does take two to tango

Learn my lingo

Read my lips

Watch my hips

Swing in the opposite direction

Ignore you’re new election

To be crowned my king

So then where’s my bling

I’ve worked hard but there’s no thing

Just a sinking feeling

Skin peeling no more you

In we

A shell now

Of what I was once

a Joie de vivre

Happy innocent and gay

Clinging to the edge

Where is the hope

The wonder of life all but gone

Am sitting watching

robins flapping

Motor bikes rattling by

People walking and talking

What more can there be

Sirens are sounding out their distress calls

Fix up other’s mess

Feet aching

Head is breaking

Heart is broken

There was never a notion

Of things to come

Live apart but pray onto others

For Love to conquer all

What more you say

Say yes and give it all up

So we can be together

Under the stars and ether

Creating all the heat that’s needed

After that spark had seeded

The initial flame

No ones to blame

In the end

They are all the same

The advocate

The voice for the one who cannot speak

The voice for the one who cannot see

The voice for the one who cannot read

The champion of the one who has no strength

But who holds the advocate up when his voice trembles

When his hands shake before he makes that call

The call to change it all

When he speaks for another’s soul

Once again I wear that hat

The advocates hat is heavy with thoughts

Of lives that will change when the morrow comes

And the muted will have a voice once more

Here have my voice, my strength and words

They are yours to change and do with what you will

I lit a candle

And blew it out for you

You’re not here anymore

To share in my pain

Thoughts and feelings

Laughter too

Oh how I wish

I wish you were here

You’re light is gone

That’s now clear

So once in a while

When down and blue

Remember you on birthdays

And struggles too

So I light a candle

And see your light come through

I miss you papa

A cardboard in hand

Dirty fingernails

I nearly tripped over you

With my coffee in a mug

Cherry ripe in a bag

Eyes locked a smile and nod ensued

I smiled back apologised

Shit what can I do

Tears welled up

I walked back to my car

A lump in my throat grew

Grabbed my card

Walked into shop

Told them to take the amount

Offer him the menu

Choose what he wants

Hot cold drinks food doesn’t matter

You choose for he they say you see

Don’t give him the choice of food

Angrily I said let him feel free

For a moment you stupid fool

We’re all in chains

This thing called life

Working to live and breathe

Whilst others fall quick

On drugs or sick

The man plays us like fiddles

He’s but just one

Down on his luck

I pray tonight he keeps warm

Dark clouds ahead

Concrete floor his bed

Thunder and lightening

A sudden storm

Early starts

Fizzled out before the day begins

Effervescent in body

Yet mind is far and longing

For the way to be shown

Someone take the reigns please

And get rid of this unease

Stop the tease

So close yet miles

From your smiles

Drip feeding the thoughts and riddles

As you fiddle with words

How absurd

Let them flow

Roll forth

No thought

Ah daylight breaks

Return back to reality

Drink that coffee

Feel the bubbles begin once more

Alert and a moron no more

Blue for two

so many trees
losing there leaves
since the road trip
I’ve buggered my knee
ruined a car
hired another employee
been busy in thoughts
in higher prayers I sought
where to now I scream
want live the dream
too many dependents
a lifelong sentence
gave myself roadblocks
oh my the shocks
hey now hey now
I’m dreaming it’s over
a new leaf I should turn over

Patci

I’m sorry I wasn’t there

Nor did I know

I’m sorry you were in pain

And your soul had to go

A lovely light with love

Your guiding light

Reached out to me

To share your joy

I was more than happy

To hear and know

I was blessed to know you

Blessed you chose me

A bright spark

A beautiful laugh

Fly now and be free

Watch over your loved ones

All love and miss thee

Head aches

Woke up with the worst

Feeling like I’ve been cursed

Blurry vision crystal scenes

Can’t make out

The rivers and ravines

Thoughts are jumbled

Sounds are muffled

Go away before I ruffle

Peace is what I long for blue

Tired I am click those shoes

Rest I should but life’s a bitch

Bills and taxes I need to hitch

A ride elsewhere on foreign shores

Where plants are green and release spores

Oceans are blue sand is clean

Ah headache goes when I picture thee

Sunday

Melancholy day

Contemplate on the word hate

As I listen to the offerings

The giving

the words spilling forth

Realisations creeping in

Like stowaways hiding in the corners of a large maze

Only coming out when safe to do so

Leaving breadcrumbs behind to gently let you know

Your job is done

Your reward a nod, a smile, a memory

Surreal feelings of joy but only for a brief hour

Turn sour bereft of power

Only words building a tower

Of the imagining

Then fade to a wispy white above

As a new day begins with the sun rise

Promising the pain will lessen if you don’t think

Another drink

Allow the stowaways to settle

Amidst the nettle

Gently drinking from the golden goblet

Of yesterday

As I listen some more to the meanderings of

The calculating teaching you to step up

Out coax you from the shell you built

As a young one

I’m looking for that shell now

What the hell

You won’t be missed the stowaway tells

Cocoon further into yourself as you protect

What little you have left

Your only regret

The empty promises that were made

Now fade into a movie you once sang

My dear …..