I cried as I

Got in the shower

Get ready for work

How it hurts

I give it all

my open pores

Sweat blood and tears

Operations and fears

Just leave the light on

I’ll be home after work

To make sure the man

Gets his feed

I envy you

The crystal blue green waters

Of volcanic hills that rise from the sea

I wish I was with thee

Drinking espresso

With the ocean breeze

And windswept salty hair

Without a care

You deserve this time

Worked hard

Dealt the card

Was gifted a life of travel

Me the nomad at heart

Left to push carts

Life has been hard

Sore and aching

Here have my last penny

Suitcases packed

The time has come

Your call you’ve beckoned

Flights booked You won

Family ties at rest and peace

New beginnings new country

New friends new lease

From a sheltered world With blinkers on

When the plane lands

Old reunions and bonds

Will once again pick up as before

The connection made

Back in 2004

The brain

Is a funny thing

The way it splits in two

I wonder if

Down deep inside

Two personalities

Not one is true

Man made us believe

In good and bad

To seperate the few

But what if

Reality is false

And delusion

Is the real cue

We’ve been taught

The brain rules the roost

The heart is meant to follow

But if there are

Two paths to take

Which one will lead

To sorrow

So here I tell

You of my thoughts

Facebook Instagram

And twitter too

Are all but one part

Of the brain

The other is the real you

So Mish mash them both

Roll them out

Which one is

The true blue ?

How deep

The depths of your love

Knows no end

Encased in all that’s pure

Regardless how it ends

There is no beginning

Nor shall ever stop

For I shall always bask

In your glow it envelopes me

Healing me through and through

Ridding me of all that is blue

These times are so tempestuous

But I can always depend

On your love for me

There it never bends

I’m always in your debt

For you are my friend

This I’ll never regret

For I love you and love to love

As a circle with no end

3.30am

The waves crashing against the shore, Wind howling as the branches tore, of the tree above me, Will I go no I won’t leave, I’ll push the boundary we call luck. I’ll stay put with my junk. This junk I own the last of stuff. Before I had more but now it’s tough. The beach is my home, the trees my shelter. No debts or loans, yes life is sweeter. So I’ll stay here until the morrow when daylight comes there’ll be true sorrow….

Time on Earth

Should be all it promises

Sunshines and lollipops

Unicorns and horses

But listen while I spill a spool

Of loneliness and heartaches

Where trees Sway

Stairs are long

and winding

And sighs escape when they may

So jig it up

Drop a few, mix it if it pleases

The plan to plot

No sadness you want

So drop them as you need to…

Daughter

I watched the light dim

As your chocolate eyes watched him

Like many others before

Treated you like a whore

Angel like and naive

A good girl I believed

Walking a dark path straight to

Adulthood just to prove

All around you cotton wool

We tried to cushion you

From the world out there

But you just didn’t care

So on you kept going

Till the fourth boy left you lonely

Defending them you did

Your hurt you couldn’t tell

Kept it buried down the well

Till the water overflowed

Up the darkness it arose

Shaking with rage inside

Blew your insides soul and mind

Now the white walls surround you

Whispers white noise docs in blue

Watch you closely as the cracks

Reveal secrets deep dark and black

I wish you could’ve talked to me

Before the eruption made you bleed

If only you shared your pain

Of the boys who broke your brain

Friend

Friend

Always the friend

A little like the bridesmaid

But never the bride

Chase never to be had

Yet breadcrumbs leave a trail for who?

Signals always flashing

For the led lights are always red

Shoulders are soft yet strong

But only used to carry the burden

Smile misread for friends

And only used to cheer you up

Eyes forever lowered

So the heart shan’t peak beyond eyelashes

Voice always quivers

But whispers words to set the tone

Blame I have only me

it’s easier than to hurt again

Enigma

You’re an enigma to me

One two three

Happy today

Cheerful and gay

Disappearing tomorrow

With all your sorrow

Finish these words

Flying like birds

Gather and nest

Sleep now just rest

Gather your strength

A long travel and send

Them all packing

They’re heavy and flacking

Here’s the spark you need

Inhale and breath

It’s only two weeks

If it’s freedom you seek

Go on just do it

You’re muse you won’t lose it