Forgive

I forgive you

But why should I care

When I have

Nothing left to spare

Nor would I even dare

You are leaving

With no remorse or despair

Are there words to change your mind

Or your cold stare

I’m broken up inside

Feeling pain I just can’t hide

In a moment you are gone

Just like this sad sad song

I’ll forgive you

If we give it one more try

I promise not to cry

And leave it there

Will you hold me

Say we will be fine

Words that will not rhyme

As you close the door behind you

One last time …..

Friend

Friend

Always the friend

A little like the bridesmaid

But never the bride

Chase never to be had

Yet breadcrumbs leave a trail for who?

Signals always flashing

For the led lights are always red

Shoulders are soft yet strong

But only used to carry the burden

Smile misread for friends

And only used to cheer you up

Eyes forever lowered

So the heart shan’t peak beyond eyelashes

Voice always quivers

But whispers words to set the tone

Blame I have only me

it’s easier than to hurt again

I miss

I miss the sun dancing across my face

Kissing my eyes whilst standing a top a hill

I miss the ocean breeze caressing my hair

Whilst my toes are digging into the grains of sandy beaches

I miss the wind circling beneath my nostrils as the leaves of a thick wooded

Area release the perfumes of eucalyptus trees

I miss the fires built within bluestone circles

Omitting their heat to keep strangers warm

I miss sleeping beneath the stars with only the moonlight

To guide us in wooded areas amongst the tall trees

But most of all I miss thee

During this lockdown and unprecedented times we will slowly

Die.

I miss feeling alive…. đź’™

A little ditty

Here she goes again oh oh oh

Falling swaying twirling oh oh oh oh

That sinking feeling oh oh oh oh

You’ve been there once before

You’ve been there once before

The pulling undertow

The pulling undertow

The crash and the burn

The crash and the burn

The nothing left to say

She’s left her body sways

The promises you made

The fabric as it frays

Just ashes on the floor

Go running for the door

Vacant eyes

Searching the room

The promises she made

A good thing she just blew

Here she goes again

Falling swaying twirling

That sinking feeling

You’ve been there once before

You’ve been there once before

Go running for the door

Go running for the door

Don’t want to

Don’t want to

Bleeding words forevermore

Don’t want to

Don’t want to

There

There she goes

Eyes roll back

The words she lacks

She’s like the sun

Her coronal mass ejections

Drew you to her

Without thought and feeling

Her warmth and magnetic pull

Was what you needed to feel

Whole again. Her brightness

Unwavering steadfast gaze

You had no choice

But you missed it.

You missed the coronal holes

The black missing chunks

Created by every disappointment

Heartbreak and lies told to her

One more wrongdoing could burn the sun out

Listen to the mass ejections you may hear

Her cries for the one true love

The promise of centuries and eons before

He will return in this life for her yet chose to be with another

So everyday she rises spins and omits her warmth knowing she has no choice

But to carry on. For many are dependent on her

Until her spark returns no more….

Honesty

Especially yours

Knows no bounds,

The hurt conjured

The angst created

The minds Talking loud,

The gossip fueled

The motors cooled

The wanting now leaves,

The longing gone

The craving burst

The love now cannot breath,

Rejection breaks

A spirit lost

Does not strengthen the need,

Can turn away

Feeling dismayed

A pool of sorrow within her

Twice

That rising ache reaching up wanting

To explode the hurt and pain

Caused by the words that bite and chew

Through the flesh and knawing

At the brittle bones that once were strong

Before the chemicals pumped into veins to stop the

Black mass wanting to overtake

The very matter and thousands of atoms that

Shaped her very being.

But twice the lump that threatened her

To spew forth was suppressed . Down deep

Pretending she didn’t hear the spiteful words

And carried on to create the friendly atmosphere

Unbeknownst to all she knows who lies

Who is deceitful and whom has used her. So quiet

And silent she’ll be. For silence will scream and then the

Sun will shine again and summer will light up the eyes

Hiding behind a veil of sadness engulfing her very

Spirit from lighting the very way needed to go on.

I saw your eyes today

The last time you looked at me in that way

My heart broke into a million pieces

Shattered and falling there were no pleases

They were sad and I saw no approval

I drew them in the angry accusal

Please tell for why were they wrought

With darkness and sadness and anger aloft

I’ve only ever tried to please

These games of hurt they must cease

I’ll finish this now for you will move

Forward you see I’ve won you’ll lose

I know in my heart there is no regret

There’s nothing my love I will soon forget

All that you were and all that you do

Was always for them But mostly for you

I’m glad that I gave you the lift that was needed

Consider this a the greatest peace treaty

Ever written for you my friend

You presumed me wrong I’ll never condemn

You to hell for this tragic story

You lead me a long for close to forty

Years the string tied to both our hearts

Is fraying now and tearing apart

One last chance to bind us together

The old song goes it’s now or never

Time for me to Back off

Too many folks are angry and rough

You take my words my songs my tunes

The jealousy spawned from lions and bulls

It started with a twin you see

The blue you saw drew you to me

So an opportunity of lights was born

Anonymity or star you’re torn

Unfortunately they sought a dream

To get close to you To you through me

I’m happy to remain in the dark

My words you’ll see the sky a lark

Will sing to you when I am near

I’m always there you see my dear

Crown of Thorns

Oh dear it would seem

A sacrificial lamb is needed

For the crown of thorns

Are ready and beaded

Now to find an innocent and pure

One whom has proven

Their worthiness and is sure

She’ll lay down her life

Her soul and her innocence

To wash him a clean of his

Follies and sins

She’s ready and waiting

By the window in white

Just whisper her name

Into the Night