Forgive

I forgive you

But why should I care

When I have

Nothing left to spare

Nor would I even dare

You are leaving

With no remorse or despair

Are there words to change your mind

Or your cold stare

I’m broken up inside

Feeling pain I just can’t hide

In a moment you are gone

Just like this sad sad song

I’ll forgive you

If we give it one more try

I promise not to cry

And leave it there

Will you hold me

Say we will be fine

Words that will not rhyme

As you close the door behind you

One last time …..

Friend

Friend

Always the friend

A little like the bridesmaid

But never the bride

Chase never to be had

Yet breadcrumbs leave a trail for who?

Signals always flashing

For the led lights are always red

Shoulders are soft yet strong

But only used to carry the burden

Smile misread for friends

And only used to cheer you up

Eyes forever lowered

So the heart shan’t peak beyond eyelashes

Voice always quivers

But whispers words to set the tone

Blame I have only me

it’s easier than to hurt again

A liar has moved in

I’ve known for a little while now

Oh how she cries like a cat meows

When hungry and won’t let up

Always taunting hey what’s up

The fake ness is overbearing

Her lying and her sharing

Of stories old and boring

Move on he yells whilst snoring

Change your tune little one

As the the fight has not been won

Yes his attention to you ruffled feathers

So sorry to hear you didn’t take the weather

Indeed he mentions others too

But really the glass slipper is not your shoe

It belongs to his queen

Who’s hardly seen

So I forgive you for thinking he was alone

As you see you’ve been fooled

Like a dog with a bone

So close

So close

Like the wind on my face

So close

Like the tear on my cheek

So close

When your hand brushed mine

So close

When your eyes locked on mine

So close

Like the bird in the air

So close

I wonder if you cared

So close

I can feel you near

So close

I tremble with fear

So close

I will be to you

So close

In dreams so true

So close

We speak the same

So close

Who was to blame

So close

I was to you

So close

My soul you saw through

So close

I saw disdain

So close

My hurt my pain

Remember to never forget …

Waiting

Nothing more to share

A heart is bare

For all to see

Including me

Private thoughts

Now stored away

You left the matrix

For quieter pastures

Never to hear

Your thoughts again

Only the music

Quiet the thread

We miss you so

Keep waiting but slow

To learn the truth

Will hurt not smooth

Bouncing about from one to the other

Still looking for your hearts’ lover

Quill

A quill for a story

A quill for a song

A quill for a memory

A quill for Tom

A quill dipped in ink

Ink black thick and smooth

Blood is the same

Red and silk but not blue

Dip the quill in the ink

Cursive fingers move with grace

Pour the thoughts on to parchment

Memories linger eyes will trace

The words on yellow paper

Conjure visions to behold

What started with a quill

Stories, memories or songs are told

Crashing waves

Here it comes

Slowly but surely

Reaching for the blue

Arching amongst the foam

Of the sea spray

Then falling quickly

A thousand droplets of water

Combining together

To make a wave

A wave of green and blue

Reaching for the sand

Clinging on but

The mother sea is pulling

It back

Back to join her

alas

Here we strive again to release

Ourselves from her

Arching and pulling away

Set me free

Reaching up for the blue

It is me

Up I go

Reaching gasping

for air for sky for love

Then crashing down clinging

To sand to hope

To you

You are the blue

Floating words

Floatings words so free

So light

Coming to me

In the blackest of night

From the darkest corners

Of the deep deep blue

Amongst the shadows

Combined they are new

Describing my thoughts my feelings

My days

Without you the hurt is unbareable

stay

Come back to where it all began

Where innocence of life and

Ignorance was true

I shouldve followed you

down the Stairs unto

A platform of imaginings

Where love is just

To inhale you awaken me

My spirit it must

An artist you paint passion into the skies

Strumming your strings above

Us so high

Alas it was never to be but a dream

For was it a memory

Or just an imaginary

You reached over as fireworks

and the clock it tick tocks

It’s twelve bells it rings as

The new year it knocks

Was that the same memory

You share as you breathe

Twas but 30 years ago

Fresh with a bridal wreathe

I told you a no

And have the pain of regret

A stranger reached out

For my lips and my breathe

For fireworks blew up

Above our heads

Another my betrothed

Watched with abated breathe

The music surrounds and

The wine it sure flowed

My head as it swimmed

To your strange colour code

I’ve met you before up above

In the skies

Before we were born

Before man had died

Where candles were light

And foot was the travel

YOU were my betrothed my spirit

My navel

Attached to our hearts

Arteries beating as one

We shared each deep thought

From whenst did it come

As we wrinkle with age

And a meeting renewed

You ask me do I know you

I could only amuse

For the walls are quite high now

To never be jumped

Know as I write this

My throat a sticky lump

Restrained me from speaking

But a smile escapes

A photo of us

As we pass by the gate

As everyone watches another spots you

Takes a photo of us

As our spirits renew

For this is not forever

Utopia awaits

I am dying today and

I promise restraint

To not look at another

Again i will not

I will wait for that spark

The one you just shot

Patience

Whilst we wait

You play to thrill

You listen to us

Your music surreal

Like a child

Holding my breath

Longing for the bell

My phone vibrates

Humble you are

But something deeper and darker

Lurks in your head

Did we misread

One of your children

Hit the depths of your heart

Did someone depart

Left you a dart

Hitting the mark

But just like a shark

Biting you

Controlling you

Again I will wait

With abated breath for your next words

Along with the thousands

Who love you and your muse

For giving us the sweet sweet sound

That resonates with

Every cell of my being

I adore and thank you

For giving me blue

Smolder you muse

Where once there was heat

Only a cool blue

The door was once opened

Your words rang true

Someone is standing now

in the frame

Only a small thing

Loneliness she blamed

Was there a stoush

A blinding jolt

Did you wake

Like a lightening bolt

I will step back now

For this too she’ll cast

And wait in the shadows

Till the anger has passed

Your words are much needed

Your songs bring such joy

A muse you’ll be seeking

For words are your toy

Lock your thoughts in a room

Seek anger love and pain

Close your door from the world

Whilst outside it rains

The innocence you radiate

Your family approves

Insatiable desires

Have always been your muse

 

*whispers your name into the sky