Another year

Without you

Another year

Dragged

Another year

Dropped a bombshell

Heart is snagged

Another year

Tears have fallen

Another year

Winter drawing

Another year

You are older

Some may say wiser

Another year

Without a mentor

Another year

Time to be gentler

I miss

I miss the sun dancing across my face

Kissing my eyes whilst standing a top a hill

I miss the ocean breeze caressing my hair

Whilst my toes are digging into the grains of sandy beaches

I miss the wind circling beneath my nostrils as the leaves of a thick wooded

Area release the perfumes of eucalyptus trees

I miss the fires built within bluestone circles

Omitting their heat to keep strangers warm

I miss sleeping beneath the stars with only the moonlight

To guide us in wooded areas amongst the tall trees

But most of all I miss thee

During this lockdown and unprecedented times we will slowly

Die.

I miss feeling alive…. 💙

My Papa

It’s been 10 years

Since you took your last breath

So many unspoken words

sad memories you left

I wish how I wish

I had been stronger with you

And defied your reasonings

Of no medicine you choose

You’ve missed your grandchildren’s

Graduations and plays

You’ve missed youngest daughter

Is starting to grey

We’re wrinkling and sagging in places

And parts

We’re growing old without you

All seemingly apart

The circle was broken

The only kindness we knew

That wretched woman

Is still alive

And still without a clue

Your eldest grandchild has

Your heart of gold

He’ll soon be leaving for

America so bold

I wish you were here

To soften the blows

To hold my hand as I too

Grow old

Waiting

Nothing more to share

A heart is bare

For all to see

Including me

Private thoughts

Now stored away

You left the matrix

For quieter pastures

Never to hear

Your thoughts again

Only the music

Quiet the thread

We miss you so

Keep waiting but slow

To learn the truth

Will hurt not smooth

Bouncing about from one to the other

Still looking for your hearts’ lover

Patience

Whilst we wait

You play to thrill

You listen to us

Your music surreal

Like a child

Holding my breath

Longing for the bell

My phone vibrates

Humble you are

But something deeper and darker

Lurks in your head

Did we misread

One of your children

Hit the depths of your heart

Did someone depart

Left you a dart

Hitting the mark

But just like a shark

Biting you

Controlling you

Again I will wait

With abated breath for your next words

Along with the thousands

Who love you and your muse

For giving us the sweet sweet sound

That resonates with

Every cell of my being

I adore and thank you

For giving me blue

The sun shone today

The sun shone today

I didn’t know it

The birds singing in the trees

I didn’t hear

People walked past and smiled

I couldn’t see

The music played on the radio

I didn’t sing

My stomach churned

I couldn’t eat

The children scream with laughter

I wouldn’t smile

I look at the sky

So Blue the Hue

You are gone

The light has dimmed

The signs are gone

 

 

*Some things you can’t explain

Longing

Longing

Wanting

Connected

Smothering

I breathe

Suffocate

Glimpses

Gyrate

Making tunes

In your head

Swaying  hips

I detest

Supple lips

Feel your touch

Oceans away

Hair so rough

Torn between

You can’t fathom

Connected we are

Blind souls of passion