I was shocked
Disbelief and rocked
Shattered and torn
To love or burn
Ashes and betrayed
Our love now frayed
My heart sank
Left the banks
Into the ocean
Waves pulled out
Undertow dragged
She bragged and bragged
Cement in my heart
Tore us apart
Heavy as lead
Into your bed
So young and pretty
My heart is graffitied
Her words of lust
Disease like rust
She’ll drain your attention
The promise of ascension
Lies are told
Hearts are sold
I wasn’t there to hold your hand
And walk you through the dark
I wasn’t there to kiss the tear
That fell into the night
The grief drew you into the blue
Shattered your heart and soul
You lost a man a hero and friend
Through age and in time grew old
I know your pain I know your sorrow
Time passes it doesn’t go away
I promise you my heart and soul
Things with time get better
You will love you will laugh
Your eyes will glisten hues
With joy and sadness there will be gladness
And some frolicking too
For now accept my viral words
Of love and caresses too
Feel the warmth surrounding you
Of many whom know sorrow of blue
The wind blows your name to the listening leaves
The leaves swirl and twirl in the wind with glee
The bark sits heavily glistening in the sun
The rain falls softly singing you’re my number one
The day turns into night with numbing pain
The night turns to day again and again
The wrinkles form on lips so quickly crease the mouth
In a downward pose until the laughter comes
Yet again you breached forward and left it all behind
Not a care for those whispering the twins name into the fire
‘Tis true as the story goes
Never in my wildest of dreams
Standing alone on the foreshore
Connected by a static beam
Blue and white crackle and pop
But hatred for me it seems
You terrorise shake up rattle and roll
Then whisper sweet nothings my dear
So tender one minute and angry the next
I mask my god foresaken fear
Yet a victim professes only love and devotes
Their heart to always be near
I don’t idolise procrastinate whip lashings and such
Just to listen then just to grieve
So tell me why me what have I done
You have chosen to mock, be a bitter pill
When only defend honor fight for and shield
Joan would have been proud to the fill
Do I lay down my sword
Tell me my friend
Never follow you to the ends
The ball is now bouncing in your court
No more no more hurt
Cut the chord the tune the blue melody hue
The tune you and I Wounds open and bled
Here she goes again
Here she goes again oh oh oh
Falling swaying twirling oh oh oh oh
That sinking feeling oh oh oh oh
You’ve been there once before
You’ve been there once before
The pulling undertow
The pulling undertow
The crash and the burn
The crash and the burn
The nothing left to say
She’s left her body sways
The promises you made
The fabric as it frays
Just ashes on the floor
Go running for the door
Vacant eyes
Searching the room
The promises she made
A good thing she just blew
Here she goes again
Falling swaying twirling
That sinking feeling
You’ve been there once before
You’ve been there once before
Go running for the door
Go running for the door
Don’t want to
Don’t want to
Bleeding words forevermore
Don’t want to
Don’t want to
There
There she goes
Eyes roll back
The words she lacks
So close
Like the wind on my face
So close
Like the tear on my cheek
So close
When your hand brushed mine
So close
When your eyes locked on mine
So close
Like the bird in the air
So close
I wonder if you cared
So close
I can feel you near
So close
I tremble with fear
So close
I will be to you
So close
In dreams so true
So close
We speak the same
So close
Who was to blame
So close
I was to you
So close
My soul you saw through
So close
I saw disdain
So close
My hurt my pain
Remember to never forget …
It’s been 10 years
Since you took your last breath
So many unspoken words
sad memories you left
I wish how I wish
I had been stronger with you
And defied your reasonings
Of no medicine you choose
You’ve missed your grandchildren’s
Graduations and plays
You’ve missed youngest daughter
Is starting to grey
We’re wrinkling and sagging in places
And parts
We’re growing old without you
All seemingly apart
The circle was broken
The only kindness we knew
That wretched woman
Is still alive
And still without a clue
Your eldest grandchild has
Your heart of gold
He’ll soon be leaving for
America so bold
I wish you were here
To soften the blows
To hold my hand as I too
Grow old
What shall I pen
On this whiteboard of life
The mistakes made or
The love of my life
The pain within
That tortures my soul
Deep in the black
Psychedelic hole
A conundrum of writings
Each a short story
I wish to not bore
Only excite you with flurry
Paint you a picture
Of colours and hues
Words to delight
Give you pleasure then blue
So why is the whiteboard
Still blank and snow white
Where is the rainbow
Cursive words to ignite
The pictures within you
To outstretch your hand
Reach for my fingers
Lift me up to your land
Of visions within you
Where my words will ring true
Resonate deep in
Your soul and heart through
But maybe I’m waiting
For you to go first
Words I will drink
With hunger and thirst
So this whiteboard remains
A blank masterpiece
Still waiting for you
Until then I will cease
Red and raw
Train track flaw
Another pain
Going insane
Healing time
Another rhyme
Feeling blue
Time standing still
Smile diminish
Friendship finished
Couldn’t wait
Gone in haste
Patience a virtue
Body now your curfew
Tired and sore
Mind implores
Sit still and heal
Scream high and shrill
Fix what’s lost
At whatever the cost
Nothing more to share
A heart is bare
For all to see
Including me
Private thoughts
Now stored away
You left the matrix
For quieter pastures
Never to hear
Your thoughts again
Only the music
Quiet the thread
We miss you so
Keep waiting but slow
To learn the truth
Will hurt not smooth
Bouncing about from one to the other
Still looking for your hearts’ lover
